Already had a little lapse in blogging but I’m back and I’m feeling good! I visited Chicago this weekend to see friends from high school and it just made me appreciate what good friendships I have. I was able to pick up things with them instantly and it didn’t feel like there was years between us. Then having such good friends to come home to when I got back is an awesome feeling. I’m so loved and I don’t always take the time to realize that. Friendships are so important and this weekend was motivating to keep working on my friendships to maintain them. Also, just had a review at work and I’m getting a bonus plus I have more time off coming up in a few weeks so yeah basically things are good :) Now, just need to get rid of this crazy snow/cold weather and life will be perfect!
"A feeling that I know so little about the world. And maybe the tiniest bit of excitement that there are real possibilities in life, too."
I’ve been thinking a lot about an old crush from high school. Nothing ever happened with him, I feel like our timing was always off. I’m trying to not live with regret and be happy with all the decisions I’ve made but that’s really hard. I can’t not reminisce about the past and think about what could have been. I’d like to think that all the decisions I’ve made have lead me to this point and this is exactly where I’m supposed to be but … there’s just too much up in the air still to know if everything actually has worked out how it’s supposed. Maybe I’m just a little home sick. Need to focus on the present. And the present is that even though it’s a blizzard outside right now I still got up and made to the gym for a workout! Feeling good cause today’s gonna be a good day ;)
Currently jamming out to some TSwift and being blissfully content with my day off. Ran errands (got new books from the Library!)-chilling-and now off to an aerial fitness class with my roomies. My room might still be a crazy mess but who cares-I’m in a good mood. Even though I have a long day at work tomorrow there’s no reason why it can’t be a GOOD long day of work. Yes, days off are amazing but the days I have to work shouldn’t get written off in my head as a day that won’t be any fun. Tomorrow has just as much potential to be a good day as today did. Just need to (keep swimming) and stay positive! Tomorrow I really want to try to give off good vibes to everyone around me. Encourage my staff, listen to them and at the very least offer everyone a smile. Because, I believe in the power of positivity :D
- 2 months ago
Just got in a little tiff with the Bestie basically over nothing. Me being short with her because I’m jealous that she gets days off work and I don’t. She gets to do absolutely nothing for two days and I want that. But instead of me telling her this, I act mean towards her. And now she’s at the gym, the same gym I would like to be at right now to. This was not the best way to start my day. I know this is something we all do, get angry over one thing when we’re actually talking about something else. I do this more then I wish I would. After the blow up, I always feel at a lost on how to go backwards and explain myself. I had a review at work this weekend and my boss said that I’m good at communicating but I’m starting to wonder if I am “good” at communicating or if compared to everyone else I appear good. I communicate things but I’m not sure if it’s always the best things or in the right way. I guess this is just one area I could start working on. No more hinting at other things, holding back information, it’s time to be straightforward with all that say. Still need to find a good medium though. Need to keep some things to myself. Just saw this quotes; “It is not necessary to react to everything we notice.” So to sum up my ramble for the day, I need to work on communicating what I’m really feeling and thinking but I need to know where the lines are, some things are better kept to myself.
So I was browsing through Pinterest, as I do most nights, and I found a pin that compared successful people to unsuccessful people and one of the traits of successful people was that they keep a journal. And since who doesn’t want to be successful, I figured reviving this blog might be a good idea. Hopefully I’ll be able to keep up with actually blogging and not just reposting other peoples posts. But I’m in my: New Year, New Me mood so I’m crossing my fingers I can keep up with this! I’m feeling very determined to focus on myself, my well being, my health and my happiness and hopefully nothing will get in my way. I even made a little vision board tonight to keep me motivated. (Today is the first day of the rest of your life!) Here’s to keeping up with this new-positive-can do-I am Dauntless-attitude!